I've never blogged before, but thought it would be a good way to chronicle this new chapter in my life. I am 38, never been married and have no children. I've been engaged once and had a handful of serious relationships. But, I haven't been able to get any of them to stick. I think it's because of the men I choose. I'm that girl that always wants to fix the guy. Well, maybe not fix so much, but I am definitely attracted to the assholes, thinking that getting a jerk to treat me well would be the ultimate score. This never happens....lol. A jerk is a jerk is a jerk. Period. I know this and yet I continue to go down that path. I want to change that. I want to look at men and dating differently.
I know this will not be easy for me. I have a very specific type of guy that I am attracted to. Put 5 guys in a line up and any of my friends could easily pick out the guy that I would want. I like tall, big football player body, manly men with a frat boy attitude and boyish charm. I don't like wishy washy guys, artsy types, or men that appear weak in any way. And yet I want them to be romantic and sweet at just the right moments. Basically I want to date big foot......because the guy that I think I want is just as elusive. So, I have made a conscious effort to try and change my attitude and outlook.
I just moved into a new place last week and thought this was the best time to make a fresh start and begin a new chapter in my life. I joined 2 dating sites this weekend. I've done the online dating thing before and had some moderate success, but I always ended up with the same blockheads. So my goal this time is just to go on as many dates as possible with a large array of different types of men. I will chronicle each experience, leaving out no gory details and then maybe I can figure out what it is that I actually want in a mate. Wish me luck and here we go!
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